Great, apparently I’m both incredibly unlucky and a dumbass.  I misread the date for the stupid jury duty thing, so I was a week late.  And apparently every single time I was supposed to be called in was in that week I missed.  Fucking wonderful.  I can’t even do that right with the date posted up on the board that’s literally a foot away from the computer I spend 90% of my time on.  Sure I wasn’t looking forward to jury duty, but I really could have used something going right in my stupid life…  Damn it.  I guess I’ll just sit here and think about how worthless I am for the next 4 hours or so until my stupid ass finally passes out.

MOD: So I’m probably gonna remove this from my main blog as it is non-cannon for the characters. But this is just how I’m feeling right now, and I hoped expressing it would help a bit… I don’t know…

I’m under a lot of stress right now, just had to drop 2 classes, which I’ll need to take during the summer, which leads into a bunch of money and job trouble on top of my class stuff. I dropped my two worst classes, but the other has been neglected to the point that I shudder at the thought of trying to catch up in it… I’ll feel better once I do, but I am having so much difficulty even getting up the energy to start trying… Maybe a good night’s rest will help me out, since I’ve been running on 5 hours at most since January.

I’m having trouble even getting the energy to participate in the RP’s or invest myself in anything. My mind seems to be convinced that I’d only be a bother, even when I know that’s not true, I can’t get the energy to contradict myself. Sorry to those of you who are waiting on drawing stuff from me, but that’ll need to wait till I’m out of this funk.

Thanks to anyone who’s patient enough to stick around, even though I never update… Maybe my brain will start working again, but for now I just feel so… Blurred. I can’t concentrate on anything, and it feels like I have a perpetual headache. I’ll let you guys know when I’m feeling better, but for now… ugh.